some statement are whirling in my empty mind.







we talk for the rest.
we stand for the vulnerable.
we see for the blind.
we run for the crippled.
we smile for the grim.
we try for the fail.
we weep for the happy.
we love for the hurt.
we fly for the reptile.
we sing for the dumb.
we fight for the harmony.

hey hey hey!

a friend of mine said:

OMG! now i got so hot with this blog! yeah, it's a new blog, so it's normal i think.

ok i wanna tell you a story about my trip, which is called Study Tour, but not all of it, just a little part.
in study tour, we learn some things by visiting companies or something. it has to be relaxing, if it's not, it can not called as Study Tour i think. and i got it!

it was a very nice trip, we go somewhere new for me, i got a lot of experience there.

ok a little part i wanna tell you is RAFTING. rafting is usually called as Arung Jeram-is it the same? because vita, my friend tell me that it's same.

we do rafting in groups of five or six. we made our own group. and i easily get my friends as partner. firstly, we're just five until we got to the progo river, the place we did it, but suddenly a girl named T*nya E*wina came to me and ask me to permit her to join my group, and of course i did.

so momentarily when we wanted to go to the river, we got the new one.
we took the balloon-boat, we jumped in to it after we prepared ourselves , using helmet, life vest, and something necessary.

and the journey began, our boat was moving slowly. firstly, i guess it would be a challenging journey, because it's my FIRST! once again, it's my FIRST!! but i was wrong.
we rowed the paddle, and we got to the first cascade, we crossed it over. and we got further and further until some of us fell to the river, hit the stone. but you know? there's one of us fell herself into the river, she's T*nya, a new comer. we didn't know her reason, but we just kept our confusion of her inside. she cried almost all the trip after she got down and slipped to the under side of the boat and Ingga-one of my teammate- accidentally stepped her, so she couldn't do inhale. so many strange things she did, but i don't wanna write it down.

this is the photo




i was sitting in the front left side, using red helmet and blue life vest.
we're Luthfi, Vita, Tari, Ingga, Tanya, and Me.

IT WAS SO FUUNN!!! I LOVE IT!

ok readers, i feel it's enough for this post.

so, stay away from drugs! stay close from my blog! and love our culture!

bye

'why do i feel sad inside? what the hell is a reason of it?' i ask to myself.

and i answer it to myself

'because i can't do anything make her happy, i can't. i'm too coward to treat her like what he did.'

'what do i have?'

'that's it! i have nothing, nothing to be showed off, and nothing to be proud of. just all the "no" and "nothing"'


guys, don't ever feel like that
maybe you don't have what other have
maybe sometimes you feel jealous with other
but that's nothing
do you get something from it?
do you feel better by doing it?
i guess no.

'but that's the fact!'

yeah, that's the fact, i know it
but you don't know that you are the one that make it gets worse and worse.

just live your life the way you are
because you won't ever be like others
because you will make your own way someday
and because God has given what's best for you.

Saturday night, i was waiting for you for hours on facebook, i clicked 'chat' for times. i got you, and you got my attention. our memories were getting re-appear.

two days next, i was addicted to my chat with you.
Hey! Let's make it longer, until my longing come out by the words.

i hid my wall because i don't want my friends see what we talked about, just you and me, me and you. and it was all the fun!

*** (means something happened here)

when you're online, will you greet me somehow or will you click 'go offline' so that i won't know you're there?
for the years i bite without you, when we tried to send our love but the connection was a trouble.

i try to catch you but i can't, maybe my songs can.






and if someday we met each other but you're with him, i will clear all our chat history.




gah! this post is really weird, it doesn't composed well, jump to somewhen, hop to there, somewhen unknown.

a missed sun was rising in the back side of the hills, the atmosphere was so cold and calm at the time when wind blew and embezzled my vulnerable bone.

but it is not as cold as my heart after i decided to go along with this feeling, to take all the consequences and the pain.

jealousy, madness and sadness, all that I've got and i will.





My Love pot, do you know why the plant still grows up well whereas the pot has been poisoned?

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